Monday, 13 September 2010

Oh fuck...

Beware, this post may suffer from 'to much information' syndrome, and for that I apologise in advance.
The last time I slept with Minty was towards the end of july, and I'm pretty sure we were carefull. I then had my period at the start of august, between the first and 7th of the month at a rough guess. I remember being snappy when Minty was down and that's a sure sign that certain things are iminent. I then slept with 'M' after my period, somepoint in the early part of august. Yes I know, what a whore, please bear with me. By my calculations I should have had my next period at the start of september somewhere. But I did'nt. I remember feeling extremley tired even though I was sleeping well, My breasts hurt like they do before that time of the month and I even had some tummy pain which to me is an indication that it's on it's way. But nothing. I confided in a female colleague and she got excited and joked that I might be pregnant. Oh fuck. So I waited a bit longer. I'm not one for checking dates and marking my periods on a calendar. Hindsight is a glorious thing because I wish I had now. I fail at womanhood.
So this evening I took a test. And it came up as positive. I did some date checking and it is possible that I could be up to 2 weeks late for my period. There is also a niggling feeling at the back of my mind that if I am pregnant, it could be Minty's. I don't know why I'm thinking like that but it is a slim possibility and whilst I'm worrying I may aswell just add to the heap of things to worry about :S
I phoned 'M' and told him everything. He was shocked. I said I would get a Dr's appointment tomorrow and we'll see from there. He phoned me back about an hour later and asked if I was winding him up. He then phoned me back again and asked to come with me to the Dr's. Bless him. I don't know what his opinion on children is. He gets on really well with my son but he said that he'd like children at somepoint in the future. I'm guessing he meant further than 9 months in the future though.
I guess I'll have to wait and see what the Doc tells me tomorrow. Because I know that the home pregnancy tests are'nt 100% reliable. But everything else points to me being in the club so to speak. I will keep you posted :)